he can manage his emotions in private the women in magazines make no demands upon him he could not make even a shy move towards getting what his body wanted for fear of being rejected he stooped so low as to create an imaginary girlfriend from pipe cleaners he gave her a name & messy hair & with a fat felt-tip drew on some rosy cheeks & to make sure she was anatomically correct he’d compare the parts of the vulva and breasts he had learned on Wikipedia